PLEASE ADVISE THIS WOMAN

I want to share my little anonymous secret.
I was 32 when I met my husband. He was almost 37 and single. He didn’t really seem like a man of my type, but I was a bit desperate. I needed to settle down. He is not really fluent in English and acts a bit barbaric, not how I imagined my future husband. He’s a plumber, and he gets a lot of work. He travels often, but he is home most of the time, too.
I wouldn’t have agreed to marry him if I was young, though I would have dated him because he has money and is equally generous.
He is a nice-looking man, but he doesn’t dress or sound like it. A woman like me wants someone who is good-looking and knows how to dress and speak fluently as well.
I really was reluctant when he brought up the idea of marriage, but I had to agree because I was 33 by then, and I felt like no better man was going to come my way. I had good men I was talking to, but none of them was interested in marriage or marrying me per se.
After we married, I started hating myself for settling with such a man. We barely attended any corporate event. His friends are all local, and he is always about us doing local things.
I am ashamed of him, so I don’t even like staying by his side when we were out.
Long story short, I got pregnant for someone else because I don’t really enjoy being intimate with my husband. He turns me off because I don’t find him attractive. The guy I got pregnant for is equally married. He is the one I wanted to marry before he dumped me for someone else. We dated for two years and I was madly in love with him. I couldn’t handle the heartbreak, but when I realised in marriage that I’d married the wrong person, I reached out to him, and we’ve been intimate ever since.
I’m not in love with him, I just like being intimate with him because I find him to be more of my dream man than my husband.
I had my child in January last year. My husband thinks he is the father, and I am not worried about DNA because it would never cross his mind. It’s the literate who disturbs women with DNA. This is a secret that would never come out because my husband is convinced the child is his, and I never told my ex the pregnancy was his.
I just found out I’m pregnant again, and I don’t even know which of them is responsible for this one.
My problem right now is that my ex mentioned that he wished I could give him a child. He and his wife have only one child. The woman is battling with PCOS, and my ex is in need of a son badly. My first child is a boy, and it’s his, but I don’t know what would happen if I tell him. He can’t be trusted so I fear to reveal this truth.
I wish that he knows the truth and puts the child in his plans. Please, what should I do? He is richer than my husband and would give the boy a better life, to be honest. Please post anonymously and let your audience advise me, thank you.
No judgements please 🙏🏿

Me: speechless

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